Hi! I dunno why, suddenly i want to tell something, an undetected feeling, but i don't know who i wannt tell and i don't know what this feeling called, so, i just write down it, all those words in my mind, i just tell it now, so, if it too weird, yeah just give me a sorry. Oia, i write it in English because i think if we tell about my feeling or i want to survive someone, it's better with English, yah ngga keliatan lebay aja, ahaha. So, if there is a weird words, never mind ya, I'm not from England, I'm Indonesian!
So......i feel i hate my self, i feel i really want back to my junior school, and study there, i don't want to move on from that school, i don't want to meet him! i don't want to join that blablabla, all i want is back to my super junior school, and time freeze in that time, freeze for a loooooong time, or even didn't need to go on. I know our life will go on, go to the next level for school, it means we have to meet a new people, new character, new story, and i have do it, i have trying hard to do it, try to comfortable with my new life, but i just feel like i waste my time, nothing different, i still can't to move on. Or it just my mind setting? so i have to change my mind setting, exchange my uncomfortable feeling with the comfortable one? It just make me like i'm the most weird huma in this world. It's hard to stay alive in my new school even i have try for a year, and my biggest mistake is i meet him, i'm the most stupid human in the world, why am i want to know him? i all i do in my spare time is just stalk him, stalker is just like the only one what can i do, and now, after all this happened, i really need my true friends, even till now i still didn't know who is my true friends? ahahhahahahahha, and u have to know, i hate this feeling, i have feel this for a year and i still can't handle it, so, now you know how stupid i am, right?
